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Oh myyy ggoooooood GOD. I DONT EVEN.

Okay. (this is sort of a long story for those of you that don’t really know me/my life)

Freshman year I had this computer applications teach named Gelder. We hit it off and shes amazing. Fast forward to present day: I work for her as an assistant while she coordinates weddings.

Gelder also set me up as an intern at a photography studio. I’m still their Intern and it’s such a cool place, and the ladies are COMPLETE SWEETHEARTS.

Anyways, I’m a senior, I’m broke and I can’t afford…well anything. My senior photos with my schools local photo studio sucked ass, I looked hideous and my photographer was old and not interactive. Long story short, I don’t have  senior photos (which I was okay with! I can take my own, it’s fine!).

I told this to Gelder one day annndddddd apparently she contacted the studio I work with and now I have a free photoshoot. Like. WUT.
I’m crying. Like I don’t deserve any of the kindness that anyone gives to me, yet people are still so nice. I didn’t want to ask the studio myself cause like… I’ve worked with them for like four months? I didn’t want to seem like I wanted to “used” them or anything. But for Mrs.Gelder to just do this solid for me just.Wow. Like. I’m crying
.

Problem? It’s a photo-shoot so they want to see me in my environment… Which is like sleeping, being on the computer, being weird at school and being weird in public…. What do I do?

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at every possible turn, i end up being hurt. I feel like a disgrace to my dad because i might not be good enough to go to college, All my exes are doing better without me, and I can’t keep stable without breaking down. I can’t even look i nthe mirror without wanting to break it. needless to say, i am sad.

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prjctinterweb:

 Hello everyone! My name is Nina Paz and I am currently taking Creative Writing as an elective. We do this unit in class called “The Real World” and although it sounds a lot like that horrible MTV show about an adolescent group of kids growing up, it is far from it. It gives a student, much like myself, the chance to dream big and get an author, journalist, hell even my local news anchor to come in and talk to my class about their job and what it’s really like behind the scenes.   So if you haven’t already seen the video, I want John Green to talk to my class about writing and being an author. I know what you’re thinking, “Who does this crazy haired girl think she is?! This is JOHN GREEN we are talking about!” I know some will scoff, call me crazy and just roll their eyes but I want to do something good GREAT AWESOME. Not only for my fellow students in C.W., but for my high school. 

   I want to leave some kind of mark on my high school. Be the girl that got a New York Best Seller to come down and have a pizza party in her seventh period class. I also want to inspire the underclassmen in my school to be bold! It’s okay to totally put yourself out there for the sake of your school! Show some pride! I love my school and it has given me a lot, so now it’s my turn to give back.

 With your help I wish to get Johns attention! Reblog this post tagged with fishingboatproceeds, send John an ask, like the video on youtube, or share it with your friends! Just get it around! It would mean the world to me and my classmates if we could make this happen! To have John Green come to my high school would not only be an honor but a blessing and a dream come true. So thank you to all that took the time to read this, or watch the video. From the bottom of my heart I thank you.

Your very optimistic senior,

Nina Paz

Mr. Green,

Please. Just… Consider it. Maybe? I know you’re super busy, but I am a graduate of the school, and I took this class, and the things it has inspired in me are priceless.

Followers, please, help this reach John Green’s eyeballs so he can come to my actually amazing old high school. Nina deserves this, as does the class.

I don’t know guys….

So my sister brought up the idea of me living with her in Ahwatukee and although that sounds all fine and dandy I don’t know.

Pros :

1. So much closer to school
2. get to wake up later
3. get to leave the house earlier than expected
4. chances of getting a job
5. after school activities

Cons:

1. Living with sister, her boyfriend, boyfriends brother and some other dude
2. Dirty house (for someone who’s a bit OCD)
3. too many animals
4. the chances of actually GETTING the job
5. leaving my parents who already think I hate them
6. Having to pay for everything myself (which I already kind of do to an extent) 

As much as I love both my mother and father and sister separately I’d rather ditch all this effort and just live with friends. I don’t want to worry about being a bother on either side of family. I feel like if I live with my sister then shes going to hold that over my parents heads. If I say not to her and live with my parents shes going to get butt-hurt. But if I stay with my parents living in Maricopa, then I have a less exciting senior year, broke and alone. :| I dont know what to do!

these stomach ulcers

give me a great excuse to just stay in the fetal position for the rest of my life